Well…
It is hard to describe the way I will today…It is not about today specifically ..Something’s happening to me and I am trying to figure out what ..All my life I’ve been searching for something, something that is missing, something I need in order to feel complete..That something is related to many things I want, need, strive for..Sometimes it seems to me that I have already formed my life path, direction to take, but sometimes I do question whether it is the right one..And how am I supposed to now if it is right or wrong..There are no scores, scales, measurements to help me understand what am I doing ..So, I am left alone with my decisions, consequences and it is scary..Now I am my own judge, professor, mentor and it requires deep analysis of each situation happening in my life..
I consider myself rich for having 2 persons , friends, in my life, who understand my internal struggles, dialogues, battles, doubts..They can feel me without having me say what is happening and that’s the most valuable thing I have..
And then, out of a sudden, I met him…
Unexpectedly, I met someone new in my life and it felt like I’ve known him for a long time..Endless discussions about the meaning of life, family, relations, goals, success…
And when i feel lost, he feels that and believes in me more than I believe in myself.. Did I deserve it? I am not sure..Unselfishly he spends his time talking to me, helping me, directing, supporting me and he may not know how much it means to me..
Searching..Constantly searching for answers, questioning my identity, my actions..Is it ever going to stop or am I taking the right way?
Who knows, but I do know that without few of them I care about my searching would be way more difficult and confusing..
Thank you..
I am still searching, but I found you…
Plavetnilo 